Copied this off Tom's blog...
5 Snacks I enjoy…
Tim Tams
CC's
Peanuts
Donuts
Cheese and crackers
5 Songs I know all the words too…
Ummmm, this is kinda embarassing...but here goes...
I Should Be So Lucky - Kylie
Never Gonna Give You Up - Rick Astley
Love In the First Degree - Bananarama
Feeling Good - Michael Buble
Being Boring - Pet Shop Boys
I actually pick up the words to songs quite easily, but these are ones that readily come to mind...
5 Things I would do with $100 million…
Invest most of the capital and live off the interest - I must agree with Tom here
Buy a house on the Nth Shore
Give my parents and my two brothers $5M each. Put $1M for each of my nieces and nephew in trust for them.
Establish a fabulous Landscape Gardening business that I will work in a couple of days a week
Lots and Lots and Lots of travel
5 Locations I would love to run away to…
Tuscany
Sicily
London
Cape Cod
Anywhere that Mr Right is/wants to be
5 Bad habits I have…
I have a mild obsession with washing my hands...
I do tend to be a rather manic driver
Falling for guys waaaayyyyy too quickly
Straightening other people's pictures, cushions, tables, etc etc
I have a bad habit for lusting after guys that will never go there with me
5 things I like doing…
Hanging out with my friends
Consuming beer and wine...particularly with said friends
Weekends away...with said friends, beer and wine
Travel
Snuggling with a hot guy - soooooo loving this at the moment (when the opportunity arises)
5 things I would never wear…
Baggy jeans that are hanging halfway down my arse
Speedos. I just can't do it.
Masseur sandles
Pink shirts on a Friday. There’s a time and a place you know. I'm with Tom on this one too...
Cheap underwear
5 TV shows that I like…
The Chaser's War on Everything
Spicks and Specks
Desperate Housewives
Grey's Anatomy
National Nine News (sad I know)
5 Biggest joys of the moment…
I've just having a great time at the moment spending evenings with mates having a glass of wine or a beer or two, eating dinner and chatting! Lovin' it!
Blogging...
Cooking...particularly for friends
Sydney at the moment - the weather is fantastic now that it's stopped raining
Planning some more dates with some rather hot guys (actually, going on the dates is probably more fun, but you get the drift)
5 Favourite toys…
Y'know, I'm not really a toy kinda guy...
Friday, June 29, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Unconscious mutterings...
Compulsion :: Sexual
Spiritual :: Person
Spray :: Paint
Compatibility :: Test
Pursuit :: Trivial
Fake :: Tan
Mobile :: Phone
Ceremony :: Wedding
Ribbons :: Bows
Mozart :: Wolfgang Amadeus
Spiritual :: Person
Spray :: Paint
Compatibility :: Test
Pursuit :: Trivial
Fake :: Tan
Mobile :: Phone
Ceremony :: Wedding
Ribbons :: Bows
Mozart :: Wolfgang Amadeus
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
The Weekend That Was...
I can't believe how busy it is this week! I thought last week was bad, but it was nothing, relatively speaking! It feels like my stomach is in a big knot from the minute I walk into work and it gradually gets twisted more and more as the day progresses. Thank goodness, come Friday at 5pm, I will walk out of work and whatever is done is done, and whatever isn't done, well, isn't going to be done this financial year. Why do people leave it to the last minute to organize themselves and their finances???
Anyway, this post is not meant to be about work - it's meant to be about the weekend. And what a weekend it was! It was awesome to pick Matt up at the airport on Friday night - this tall, hot and well dressed guy walked out of the gate, came up to me and gave me a very big hug and it felt gooood! I'd forgotten how good looking he is! We had tentatively planned to go out to a bar or something straight from the airport, but he suggested grabbing a bottle of wine and going straight home! Being the gracious host I am, I quickly acquiesced (yeah, such a struggle) and drove him home. Being the well planned host I am, I already had a bottle of champers in the fridge! he he he! So, we consumed that over a good dose of conversation! It was amazing how quickly the hours flew and even more amazing that I hadn't jumped on him the moment he walked into my apartment! But I showed great restraint, and to be honest, seriously just wanted to chat. Nature took its course eventually and I'll be saying no more! *wink*
It was lovely to wake up next to him the next morning, particuarly because it was such a beautiful morning, the past three Saturdays being rainy. And it was even more lovely to then doze again, wake up, snuggle some more, and doze again. We eventually dragged ourselves out of bed at midday and walked down to one of the cafes on Blues Point Rd and had ourselves a wonderful brunch in the sunlight! The delightful, warm sun! Walked across the Harbour Bridge, with the harbour just sparkling! A relaxed beer at the Glenmore Hotel overlooking Circular Quay followed, with a hot chocolate from Starbucks sustaining us for the quick train trip home. And then Saturday night!
What can I say about Saturday night? FAN-BLOODY-TASTIC! It was seriously one of the best nights out I have had in a long long time! James and Jacqui collected us in the taxi and we motored into Cockle Bay Wharf where we met Evan and his Doctor (who, at Evan's request, shall be called McDreamy from now on) at Chinta Ria, a Malaysian restaurant. I was a tad nervous about this, as Evan, James & Jacqui and Matt had not met each other, and I had never met McDreamy. So I was unsure how the dynamics would be! No worries there! Everyone got on like a house on fire, with McDreamy being one of the funniest and most entertaining guys I have ever met! I relaxed big time and after the 6 of us had consumed 4 bottles of wine, all of us were most relaxed indeed! We then toddled across the pedestrian bridge to Star City and attended Priscilla, The Musical. I have seen Priscilla before, about 3 months ago, but this time was even more fun! We seriously (if I can use that word) had an awesome night! Lots of laughs (in and out of the theatre), a few cocktails and a bit of gayducation for James and Jacqui!
Sunday was much more of a chilled out day and being a little overcast, suited us to a T! Lunch, a movie (The Fabulous 4 sequel Rise of the Silver Surfer with that hottie Chris Evans), dinner and home for a DVD, snuggled on the couch. How good is that!
Yesterday, we jumped on the train into the city and we parted company at Wynyard station - me to work, Matt to the Airport line and thence to Melbourne. I was thoroughly knackered and more than a little melancholy! We had a FUN weekend and I got to know Matt a bit better, to build on the friendship that started 9 months ago as just a couple of shags in London. James and Jacqui got to meet Evan finally, after hearing so much about him, and I got to meet McDreamy! And just for the record, I think Evan and McDreamy have both scored BIG TIME!
The weekend, to sum up, felt like a holiday! Which was perfect! I seriously needed a weekend like that! I can't wait to see Matt again, when I go over to London in October.
And I can't wait for this week to be over! Bring on 1 July!
Anyway, this post is not meant to be about work - it's meant to be about the weekend. And what a weekend it was! It was awesome to pick Matt up at the airport on Friday night - this tall, hot and well dressed guy walked out of the gate, came up to me and gave me a very big hug and it felt gooood! I'd forgotten how good looking he is! We had tentatively planned to go out to a bar or something straight from the airport, but he suggested grabbing a bottle of wine and going straight home! Being the gracious host I am, I quickly acquiesced (yeah, such a struggle) and drove him home. Being the well planned host I am, I already had a bottle of champers in the fridge! he he he! So, we consumed that over a good dose of conversation! It was amazing how quickly the hours flew and even more amazing that I hadn't jumped on him the moment he walked into my apartment! But I showed great restraint, and to be honest, seriously just wanted to chat. Nature took its course eventually and I'll be saying no more! *wink*
It was lovely to wake up next to him the next morning, particuarly because it was such a beautiful morning, the past three Saturdays being rainy. And it was even more lovely to then doze again, wake up, snuggle some more, and doze again. We eventually dragged ourselves out of bed at midday and walked down to one of the cafes on Blues Point Rd and had ourselves a wonderful brunch in the sunlight! The delightful, warm sun! Walked across the Harbour Bridge, with the harbour just sparkling! A relaxed beer at the Glenmore Hotel overlooking Circular Quay followed, with a hot chocolate from Starbucks sustaining us for the quick train trip home. And then Saturday night!
What can I say about Saturday night? FAN-BLOODY-TASTIC! It was seriously one of the best nights out I have had in a long long time! James and Jacqui collected us in the taxi and we motored into Cockle Bay Wharf where we met Evan and his Doctor (who, at Evan's request, shall be called McDreamy from now on) at Chinta Ria, a Malaysian restaurant. I was a tad nervous about this, as Evan, James & Jacqui and Matt had not met each other, and I had never met McDreamy. So I was unsure how the dynamics would be! No worries there! Everyone got on like a house on fire, with McDreamy being one of the funniest and most entertaining guys I have ever met! I relaxed big time and after the 6 of us had consumed 4 bottles of wine, all of us were most relaxed indeed! We then toddled across the pedestrian bridge to Star City and attended Priscilla, The Musical. I have seen Priscilla before, about 3 months ago, but this time was even more fun! We seriously (if I can use that word) had an awesome night! Lots of laughs (in and out of the theatre), a few cocktails and a bit of gayducation for James and Jacqui!
Sunday was much more of a chilled out day and being a little overcast, suited us to a T! Lunch, a movie (The Fabulous 4 sequel Rise of the Silver Surfer with that hottie Chris Evans), dinner and home for a DVD, snuggled on the couch. How good is that!
Yesterday, we jumped on the train into the city and we parted company at Wynyard station - me to work, Matt to the Airport line and thence to Melbourne. I was thoroughly knackered and more than a little melancholy! We had a FUN weekend and I got to know Matt a bit better, to build on the friendship that started 9 months ago as just a couple of shags in London. James and Jacqui got to meet Evan finally, after hearing so much about him, and I got to meet McDreamy! And just for the record, I think Evan and McDreamy have both scored BIG TIME!
The weekend, to sum up, felt like a holiday! Which was perfect! I seriously needed a weekend like that! I can't wait to see Matt again, when I go over to London in October.
And I can't wait for this week to be over! Bring on 1 July!
Monday, June 25, 2007
I've been tagged too...
OK OK, I'm probably one of the last to do this although I was tagged a week ago...I have not had a chance to blog nor have I felt the inclination to blog. But I think I'm back...I think.
Anyway, YarravillePaul tagged me first, and then Soul Seared Dreamer tagged me, so I'm getting the hint boys! I'm supposed to expose 8 things about myself that no-one else knows...so, here goes...
Creative
1. I learned violin for 8 yrs, starting when I was 8.
2. I have done the flowers (bouquets, table arrangements and the church flowers) for 10 weddings (all friends). I have been the photographer for 2 of those weddings. In the 2 weddings where I was both florist and photographer, I was also a Groomsman. Talk about multi-tasking!
Employment
3. My ultimate career goal when I was a kid was to be a Bank Teller! (been there, did that, never want to do it again)
4. I've been working for my employer 20 yrs this month. (makes me feel sooooo old and boring)
History
5. My parents owned a jewellery store, specialising in opals and coloured gems, for 5 years from when I was 10 yrs old. (hence, my fondness for jewellery and the British Crown Jewels)
6. My favourite subject at school was music, but my best subject was Mathematics
Sexuality
7. I've never had sex with a female (which, combined with the fact previously revealed in my blog that I first had sex with a guy when I was 28, means that I was one very old virgin)
8. The only member of my family who has talked to me since I came out last year is my gay brother Mark (in London)
Anyway, YarravillePaul tagged me first, and then Soul Seared Dreamer tagged me, so I'm getting the hint boys! I'm supposed to expose 8 things about myself that no-one else knows...so, here goes...
Creative
1. I learned violin for 8 yrs, starting when I was 8.
2. I have done the flowers (bouquets, table arrangements and the church flowers) for 10 weddings (all friends). I have been the photographer for 2 of those weddings. In the 2 weddings where I was both florist and photographer, I was also a Groomsman. Talk about multi-tasking!
Employment
3. My ultimate career goal when I was a kid was to be a Bank Teller! (been there, did that, never want to do it again)
4. I've been working for my employer 20 yrs this month. (makes me feel sooooo old and boring)
History
5. My parents owned a jewellery store, specialising in opals and coloured gems, for 5 years from when I was 10 yrs old. (hence, my fondness for jewellery and the British Crown Jewels)
6. My favourite subject at school was music, but my best subject was Mathematics
Sexuality
7. I've never had sex with a female (which, combined with the fact previously revealed in my blog that I first had sex with a guy when I was 28, means that I was one very old virgin)
8. The only member of my family who has talked to me since I came out last year is my gay brother Mark (in London)
Friday, June 22, 2007
Monty's Miscellaneous Musings...
I have no time to blog at the moment, but it's 5.05pm and I'm still at work and I'm over it for the week. So I thought I had better put digit to QWERTY and blog.
This week has been a funny week for me - but a good one. I received some good advice from a friend on Wednesday morning..."Monty" he said, "you need to get out more, have some fun, relax and just enjoy yourself". And you know what, I do! I have been waaaaayyyyyy too intense over the last couple of weeks and so I gave myself a bit of a slap around the chops and a good talking to. And then the sun came out...literally. It's been rainy weather for the past few weeks here in Sydney and it was just strange that as I was thinking about the advice I had received, the sun actually came out. The skies cleared and the sky was blue! And I felt a lift in my spirits quite literally! And I thought to myself...'yes, I do need to just chill out. Get over yourself Monty'!
I met up with my mate Muzbot on Wednesday night for a beer (or 6) and dinner and it was FANTASTIC to catch up with him and hear his travel stories! I had a sensationally FUN night with him, ending up at his place a little inebriated and playing internet Trivia games! And of course, talking him into doing THAT PST picture! he he he! Good onya Muz! It was the PERFECT panacea for me!!!
My friend Evan came over last night for dinner - he's deeply in with his Doctor - and again, it was another great night catching up with a mate! Both Muz and Evan have become very good friends, in very different ways, with different personalities and it's great to have them around!
Tonight, I pick up my friend Matt from the airport at 9.20pm and it's on for young and old!!! Matt, you may remember, was my first ever sleepover guy. He's an Aussie who's been living in London for the past few years and I met him last year in London on Monty's Shagging Tour of Europe! He's been visiting his family in Perth for the past week and has flown over to Sydney to see me for the weekend! So I am EXCITED!!! Apart from shagging the pants off him (of which there will be plenty!), we're going to "Priscilla, The Musical" tomorrow night with Evan and His Doctor and my friends James and Jacqui. So I get to meet Evan's Doctor which will be fun, and Matt will get to meet my friends! And Sunday, we catch up with Simon, the Sailing Penguin and his other half, The Guvnr! And alas, on Monday, Matt departs. . . sigh. . .
So it's all happening this weekend. Monday I am sure I am going to be SMASHED! Not a good week to be tired, being THE BUSIEST week of the year in my profession! But hey, it will be worth it!
Have a great weekend everyone!
This week has been a funny week for me - but a good one. I received some good advice from a friend on Wednesday morning..."Monty" he said, "you need to get out more, have some fun, relax and just enjoy yourself". And you know what, I do! I have been waaaaayyyyyy too intense over the last couple of weeks and so I gave myself a bit of a slap around the chops and a good talking to. And then the sun came out...literally. It's been rainy weather for the past few weeks here in Sydney and it was just strange that as I was thinking about the advice I had received, the sun actually came out. The skies cleared and the sky was blue! And I felt a lift in my spirits quite literally! And I thought to myself...'yes, I do need to just chill out. Get over yourself Monty'!
I met up with my mate Muzbot on Wednesday night for a beer (or 6) and dinner and it was FANTASTIC to catch up with him and hear his travel stories! I had a sensationally FUN night with him, ending up at his place a little inebriated and playing internet Trivia games! And of course, talking him into doing THAT PST picture! he he he! Good onya Muz! It was the PERFECT panacea for me!!!
My friend Evan came over last night for dinner - he's deeply in with his Doctor - and again, it was another great night catching up with a mate! Both Muz and Evan have become very good friends, in very different ways, with different personalities and it's great to have them around!
Tonight, I pick up my friend Matt from the airport at 9.20pm and it's on for young and old!!! Matt, you may remember, was my first ever sleepover guy. He's an Aussie who's been living in London for the past few years and I met him last year in London on Monty's Shagging Tour of Europe! He's been visiting his family in Perth for the past week and has flown over to Sydney to see me for the weekend! So I am EXCITED!!! Apart from shagging the pants off him (of which there will be plenty!), we're going to "Priscilla, The Musical" tomorrow night with Evan and His Doctor and my friends James and Jacqui. So I get to meet Evan's Doctor which will be fun, and Matt will get to meet my friends! And Sunday, we catch up with Simon, the Sailing Penguin and his other half, The Guvnr! And alas, on Monday, Matt departs. . . sigh. . .
So it's all happening this weekend. Monday I am sure I am going to be SMASHED! Not a good week to be tired, being THE BUSIEST week of the year in my profession! But hey, it will be worth it!
Have a great weekend everyone!
Thursday, June 21, 2007
PST...
A very quick post about PST as I have been neglecting this particular subject for a couple of weeks - mind you, I've still been wearing my Pink Shirt every Thursday and hope that everyone else has been too.
BUT, this week, hearts will be aflutter around the world when my good friend Muzbot's latest PST picture is viewed! But I warn you, be quick and check it out NOW as he's threatening to make this a time-limited post!
I've got a bucketload of stuff to post - but this week has been CRAZY busy, so who knows when I'll get a chance to post. But I promise, there will be lots and lots and lots.
In the meantime, have a look at Muzbot's blog!!!!! Seriously! :-)
BUT, this week, hearts will be aflutter around the world when my good friend Muzbot's latest PST picture is viewed! But I warn you, be quick and check it out NOW as he's threatening to make this a time-limited post!
I've got a bucketload of stuff to post - but this week has been CRAZY busy, so who knows when I'll get a chance to post. But I promise, there will be lots and lots and lots.
In the meantime, have a look at Muzbot's blog!!!!! Seriously! :-)
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Unconscious Mutterings...
Riding :: Hood (Red)
Actress :: Julia Roberts
Flowers :: Market
Making :: Over
Robot :: Machine
Enjoy :: Yourself
Identify :: Yourself
22 :: Catch
Busy :: -as a bee
Forward :: Fast
Actress :: Julia Roberts
Flowers :: Market
Making :: Over
Robot :: Machine
Enjoy :: Yourself
Identify :: Yourself
22 :: Catch
Busy :: -as a bee
Forward :: Fast
Friday, June 15, 2007
Unconscious mutterings...
Acoustic :: sound
Sanity :: Records
Mambo :: Italiano
Session :: Jam
Hound :: Dog
Cat :: Dog
Coward :: Howard
Trunk :: Boot
Hold me :: Tight
Psychological :: Warfare
Sanity :: Records
Mambo :: Italiano
Session :: Jam
Hound :: Dog
Cat :: Dog
Coward :: Howard
Trunk :: Boot
Hold me :: Tight
Psychological :: Warfare
TGIF...
I'm feeling rather good at the moment...a good end to an all-over-the-place week. You know, over the past couple of weeks, I've been doubting myself, feeling like I didn't have "it". But, this week has been really really constructive for me.
I'm going on a date tomorrow night with a lovely guy and that should be great. I have The Doctor sms'ing me, wanting to see me again (dunno whether I will, he was a bit of a rebound guy, so I think I may have to let him down gently) . And as my friend Christiaan said last night, I'm not exactly the Hunchback of Notre Dame. I'm a good looking (well, reasonably anyway) guy, not exactly old, slim, single and available! I've got a good job, I live on the North Shore (which is a lovely place to live), and am quite settled! To be frank, I'm a catch!!! he he he!
So what's there to complain about? Nothing I say! Nothing! I'm going to have a FABULOUS weekend! Hope everyone else has a good one too! HUGS to you all! xxx
I'm going on a date tomorrow night with a lovely guy and that should be great. I have The Doctor sms'ing me, wanting to see me again (dunno whether I will, he was a bit of a rebound guy, so I think I may have to let him down gently) . And as my friend Christiaan said last night, I'm not exactly the Hunchback of Notre Dame. I'm a good looking (well, reasonably anyway) guy, not exactly old, slim, single and available! I've got a good job, I live on the North Shore (which is a lovely place to live), and am quite settled! To be frank, I'm a catch!!! he he he!
So what's there to complain about? Nothing I say! Nothing! I'm going to have a FABULOUS weekend! Hope everyone else has a good one too! HUGS to you all! xxx
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
This is how I'm feeling at the moment...
Yet each man kills the thing he loves,
By each let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword!
Some kill their love when they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife, because
The dead so soon grow cold.
Some love too little, some too long,
Some sell and others buy;
Some do the deed with many tears,
And some without a sigh:
For each man kills the thing he loves,
Yet each man does not die.
Oscar Wilde The Ballad of Reading Gaol
By each let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss
The brave man with a sword!
Some kill their love when they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife, because
The dead so soon grow cold.
Some love too little, some too long,
Some sell and others buy;
Some do the deed with many tears,
And some without a sigh:
For each man kills the thing he loves,
Yet each man does not die.
Oscar Wilde The Ballad of Reading Gaol
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Rain...feel it on my fingertips...
It's been a wild and woolly weekend here in the Emerald City! Rain aplenty, in fact, they are saying we've not had a storm like this in 30 yrs! It's cold, wet and windy...thankfully, today the wind has died down and it's only showering intermittently. The sun is also desperately trying to make an appearance; there are glimpses of blue betwix the dark and stormy clouds...Perfect weather for snuggling! PERFECT!!! And, for all of those non-Sydneysiders, it's also Queens Birthday long weekend! Yay! Yes, that's right, the English don't get a day off for the Queens Birthday, but us here in the colonies do! he he he!
Anyway, I didn't really have anything planned for this weekend socially. It was going to be a play-it-by-ear kinda weekend, combined with a "chill out, sleep in, do little" plan. So far, it's turned out quite well in achieving all of the above! I've definitely chilled, totally slept in and I have done very little! 100% of plan. And it's still been quite social really. Yesterday, I had my monthly massage with my hunky masseur - it's very sad for me because he's decided to move to London in a couple of months! Arghhhh! I'll need to find a new one! (It's good for all you Londoners because he gives a sensational massage...so if you want his details, let me know!) After that, I caught up with PC for a cup of tea (he's English so what would you expect) and a chat which was lovely. Yesterday was such a day for being inside drinking hot beverages and chatting. The weather virtually demanded that kind of activity. And then last night, I had a date. Yes, that's right, Monty's back dating! I know I said a couple of weeks ago that I was going to, but I hadn't actually done much about it. I did, after GIQ and I initially "broke up", go out on a dinner date with a doctor that I had chatted to via GD. But that had been it. And so yesterday, I messaged the Doctor to see if he was free; he was, and so he came over last night and we had take-away (or rather, home delivery) Indian and watched a DVD (and snuggled). It was rather pleasant I must say! Last night was not a night to be out and about, and so staying in, heating on, hot food in one's tummy, and snuggling with a hot guy, was most warming to my soul! I wasn't up to meeting a new guy, so this was an easy transition back into the dating scene. I don't think the Doctor is Mr Right, but he's certainly got friend potential...and he's a sensational snuggler! he he he! Handy to have over the coming winter months! (just as an aside, Doctors seem to be The Thing at the moment...my friend Evan has also just started seeing a Doctor)
So, things are looking up again. I'm feeling pretty cool, calm and collected after my brain (or rather heart) explosion last week. And it was heartening to have such positive feedback from my last blog post - thank you so much to those of you who left a comment! Very touched by your lovely expressions (and advice)!
My friend Matt (from London) also comes in less than 2 weeks time now and it's going to be a busy but fun weekend with him and my friends. So no complaints from this quarter! Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!
Anyway, I didn't really have anything planned for this weekend socially. It was going to be a play-it-by-ear kinda weekend, combined with a "chill out, sleep in, do little" plan. So far, it's turned out quite well in achieving all of the above! I've definitely chilled, totally slept in and I have done very little! 100% of plan. And it's still been quite social really. Yesterday, I had my monthly massage with my hunky masseur - it's very sad for me because he's decided to move to London in a couple of months! Arghhhh! I'll need to find a new one! (It's good for all you Londoners because he gives a sensational massage...so if you want his details, let me know!) After that, I caught up with PC for a cup of tea (he's English so what would you expect) and a chat which was lovely. Yesterday was such a day for being inside drinking hot beverages and chatting. The weather virtually demanded that kind of activity. And then last night, I had a date. Yes, that's right, Monty's back dating! I know I said a couple of weeks ago that I was going to, but I hadn't actually done much about it. I did, after GIQ and I initially "broke up", go out on a dinner date with a doctor that I had chatted to via GD. But that had been it. And so yesterday, I messaged the Doctor to see if he was free; he was, and so he came over last night and we had take-away (or rather, home delivery) Indian and watched a DVD (and snuggled). It was rather pleasant I must say! Last night was not a night to be out and about, and so staying in, heating on, hot food in one's tummy, and snuggling with a hot guy, was most warming to my soul! I wasn't up to meeting a new guy, so this was an easy transition back into the dating scene. I don't think the Doctor is Mr Right, but he's certainly got friend potential...and he's a sensational snuggler! he he he! Handy to have over the coming winter months! (just as an aside, Doctors seem to be The Thing at the moment...my friend Evan has also just started seeing a Doctor)
So, things are looking up again. I'm feeling pretty cool, calm and collected after my brain (or rather heart) explosion last week. And it was heartening to have such positive feedback from my last blog post - thank you so much to those of you who left a comment! Very touched by your lovely expressions (and advice)!
My friend Matt (from London) also comes in less than 2 weeks time now and it's going to be a busy but fun weekend with him and my friends. So no complaints from this quarter! Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Green eyed monster...
Well well well...in my last post, I mentioned how the Gent In Question (GIQ) and I had sorted everything out and things were on an even keel. I was happy with how things were in our friendship and that was that. WRONG! In affairs of the heart, Monty is still very much a novice and events this week just proved that.
Where does one start??? Well, firstly, I had a lovely weekend away with my friends James and Jacqui - relaxed, fun and very alcoholic! (at one point in time, apparently this little black duck had fallen asleep in a drunken stupor at the dining table while James was doing a nudie run around the house, equally inebriated. Fortunately for us, Jacqui was a bit more in control of things and was able to put me to bed and eventually get James to bed too). Anyway, I digress. So I was feeling pretty good with the world come Monday.
GIQ and I had been chatting via email on Monday and in the evening, I sms'ed him in response to his email. I thought we should have a chat (on the phone) but got this somewhat cryptic response...
"I can't talk..."
The sms conversation proceeded as follows then...
M: Damn, I was going to give you a ring tonight - do u have company?
GIQ: Ummm, yes, sorry. x
At this point, I realised that he wasn't hosting his maiden aunt for dinner...
M: Bugger
GIQ: In a couple of hours, yes.
M: Bastard
GIQ: You're better...
M: Doesn't help. Major dose of green eyed monster happening here. FUCK!
GIQ: Just don't, ok. I'm so not worth one second of you feeling like this.
M: Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
GIQ: You are cute, pure of heart and lovely. Go and find someone like you.
M: Doesn't help. Not your fault. Fuck Fuck Fuck!
At this point, I was sitting on my couch, blindly watching Desperate Housewives, trying to concentrate, seeing images on the TV but not comprehending anything that was happening in the show. I was devastated! And insanely jealous! And the thing that I couldn't understand was why I was feeling this way! I thought that I had settled in my heart the fact that "we" weren't going to happen as a couple...that we were going to be good friends and that's it. But obviously, from my reaction, my head had been fooling my heart! And suddenly, my heart was in control...and my emotions were out of control!
Now, normally I'm a pretty controlled guy emotionally and even on the few occasions when my emotions have been heightened, I've been able to remove myself from the situation and think things through logically. I've been able to work out why I'm feeling that way, and been able to reason with myself as to why I shouldn't feel that way, or be able to formulate a plan of action to enable me to manage my feelings so that I can be in control again. I've got a pretty good understanding of how I tick generally and so therefore have been able to sort myself out, no matter what the situation.
But, on Monday night, I couldn't think things through...I couldn't reason, my mind was a blank...I was just simply FEELING! My emotions got the better of me and wave after wave of hurt and jealousy were washing over me and I couldn't stop it! I had this horrible heavy feeling in my chest and I seriously just wanted to sit there and weep!
Fortunately for me, GIQ sussed out that I was not feeling particularly chuffed (perceptive bloke that he is) from my above sms's and so, bless his heart, interrupted his date and rang me, concerned for me. I was somewhat surprised and touched that he was willing to do this but I also had a lot of stuff that needed to be expressed. And so I did let rip - with both barrels blazing. And to his credit, he took it all in his stride. He was very kind and understanding and I think he did actually accept some of the points I made about how I felt he had treated me. NOT, I must hasten to add, that he had mistreated me, or deliberately set out to hurt me! He had been very honest with me all the way! But, I had foolishly allowed feelings to develop, feelings which obviously went far deeper than I had expected. And this event simply triggered them. But we ended up having a really good chat, and even a couple of laughs. And so I hung up, feeling much better about things.
I slept very well that night - I was exhausted - and the next day, woke up still sore (emotionally) but my mind was back in control and doing its reasoning, sorting, and managing my feelings which was good. This time I think it finally sank in that there wasn't going to be an "us", this was NOT going to be the Grand Romance of my life, it was OVER.
And looking back back now after a couple of days, I realize that it had to happen for my true feelings to come to the surface and be dealt with. We've talked pretty extensively over the past couple of days as well and things have actually settled down! I do feel finally like I'm getting over him. Truly getting over him. I still like him a lot, I still think he's a great guy, I know we are going to be great friends! And I know that in time, we'll look back at the start of our friendship, these past few weeks of rollercoastering emotions, and have ourselves a quiet chuckle! Or maybe even a hooting laugh!
I have high regard for GIQ and his friendship and for the way he's been with me (with one or two exceptions which we've dealt with). It's been a new experience for me and yet, he's not treated me like some kind of psychopath or a lovesick kid (which is how I think I've acted on occasions) but as an adult who's gone through lots of changes in the last year or so and is on a very very steep learning curve. I've learned a lot about relationships, friendships and me over the past few weeks and that's always a good thing. If you can learn from your mistakes, you're less likely to repeat them. So, thanks GIQ! And thanks to the few of you who've known what's been happening and who've been so supportive of me and my emotionally instability! Big hug to you all.
Monty! xxx
Where does one start??? Well, firstly, I had a lovely weekend away with my friends James and Jacqui - relaxed, fun and very alcoholic! (at one point in time, apparently this little black duck had fallen asleep in a drunken stupor at the dining table while James was doing a nudie run around the house, equally inebriated. Fortunately for us, Jacqui was a bit more in control of things and was able to put me to bed and eventually get James to bed too). Anyway, I digress. So I was feeling pretty good with the world come Monday.
GIQ and I had been chatting via email on Monday and in the evening, I sms'ed him in response to his email. I thought we should have a chat (on the phone) but got this somewhat cryptic response...
"I can't talk..."
The sms conversation proceeded as follows then...
M: Damn, I was going to give you a ring tonight - do u have company?
GIQ: Ummm, yes, sorry. x
At this point, I realised that he wasn't hosting his maiden aunt for dinner...
M: Bugger
GIQ: In a couple of hours, yes.
M: Bastard
GIQ: You're better...
M: Doesn't help. Major dose of green eyed monster happening here. FUCK!
GIQ: Just don't, ok. I'm so not worth one second of you feeling like this.
M: Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
GIQ: You are cute, pure of heart and lovely. Go and find someone like you.
M: Doesn't help. Not your fault. Fuck Fuck Fuck!
At this point, I was sitting on my couch, blindly watching Desperate Housewives, trying to concentrate, seeing images on the TV but not comprehending anything that was happening in the show. I was devastated! And insanely jealous! And the thing that I couldn't understand was why I was feeling this way! I thought that I had settled in my heart the fact that "we" weren't going to happen as a couple...that we were going to be good friends and that's it. But obviously, from my reaction, my head had been fooling my heart! And suddenly, my heart was in control...and my emotions were out of control!
Now, normally I'm a pretty controlled guy emotionally and even on the few occasions when my emotions have been heightened, I've been able to remove myself from the situation and think things through logically. I've been able to work out why I'm feeling that way, and been able to reason with myself as to why I shouldn't feel that way, or be able to formulate a plan of action to enable me to manage my feelings so that I can be in control again. I've got a pretty good understanding of how I tick generally and so therefore have been able to sort myself out, no matter what the situation.
But, on Monday night, I couldn't think things through...I couldn't reason, my mind was a blank...I was just simply FEELING! My emotions got the better of me and wave after wave of hurt and jealousy were washing over me and I couldn't stop it! I had this horrible heavy feeling in my chest and I seriously just wanted to sit there and weep!
Fortunately for me, GIQ sussed out that I was not feeling particularly chuffed (perceptive bloke that he is) from my above sms's and so, bless his heart, interrupted his date and rang me, concerned for me. I was somewhat surprised and touched that he was willing to do this but I also had a lot of stuff that needed to be expressed. And so I did let rip - with both barrels blazing. And to his credit, he took it all in his stride. He was very kind and understanding and I think he did actually accept some of the points I made about how I felt he had treated me. NOT, I must hasten to add, that he had mistreated me, or deliberately set out to hurt me! He had been very honest with me all the way! But, I had foolishly allowed feelings to develop, feelings which obviously went far deeper than I had expected. And this event simply triggered them. But we ended up having a really good chat, and even a couple of laughs. And so I hung up, feeling much better about things.
I slept very well that night - I was exhausted - and the next day, woke up still sore (emotionally) but my mind was back in control and doing its reasoning, sorting, and managing my feelings which was good. This time I think it finally sank in that there wasn't going to be an "us", this was NOT going to be the Grand Romance of my life, it was OVER.
And looking back back now after a couple of days, I realize that it had to happen for my true feelings to come to the surface and be dealt with. We've talked pretty extensively over the past couple of days as well and things have actually settled down! I do feel finally like I'm getting over him. Truly getting over him. I still like him a lot, I still think he's a great guy, I know we are going to be great friends! And I know that in time, we'll look back at the start of our friendship, these past few weeks of rollercoastering emotions, and have ourselves a quiet chuckle! Or maybe even a hooting laugh!
I have high regard for GIQ and his friendship and for the way he's been with me (with one or two exceptions which we've dealt with). It's been a new experience for me and yet, he's not treated me like some kind of psychopath or a lovesick kid (which is how I think I've acted on occasions) but as an adult who's gone through lots of changes in the last year or so and is on a very very steep learning curve. I've learned a lot about relationships, friendships and me over the past few weeks and that's always a good thing. If you can learn from your mistakes, you're less likely to repeat them. So, thanks GIQ! And thanks to the few of you who've known what's been happening and who've been so supportive of me and my emotionally instability! Big hug to you all.
Monty! xxx
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Unconscious mutterings...
Savage :: Garden
Warrior :: Scholar
Daisy :: Chain
Schedule :: Meetings
Rock, paper, scissors :: Rock
Medical :: Journal
Jade :: Necklace
Elevator :: Musak
Drain :: -o
Goldfish :: Bowl
Warrior :: Scholar
Daisy :: Chain
Schedule :: Meetings
Rock, paper, scissors :: Rock
Medical :: Journal
Jade :: Necklace
Elevator :: Musak
Drain :: -o
Goldfish :: Bowl
Friday, June 01, 2007
The Weekend Is Upon Us...
What a weird week it has been! It's still busy at work however I think I've broken the back of my URGENT URGENT stuff and so I've felt a bit less stressed...emphasis on a BIT. There's still plenty of stress, but I'm coping better this week! And today, I'm so totally lacking in any desire to do any work at all!!! I've been reading blogs, making comments on blogs, chatting to colleagues, basically anything that isn't work!
But on top of the bizarre work mood I've been in, I have also had a less stressed (or angsty) week on a personal note. I think the Gent In Question and I have sorted things out fully. We've got ourselves onto a mutally agreeable emotional platform and are moving forward in a satisfactory fashion! I'm pretty chuffed about this - he's a great guy and is going to be a very good friend (well, is already a good friend).
I'm off down the coast this afternoon with my friends James and Jacqui - down to the beach house. It's hardly the weather for beach-housing...the chill of autumn is fast turning wintery and so I doubt there will be much beaching! BUT, it is gorgeous weather still during the day, with bright sunny skies and it's still in the 20's so I feel we will be sitting on the back lawn with a full picnic spread tomorrow afternoon! 'twill be lots of cheeses, dips, crackers, olives, artichokes and of course, wine! mmmmmmmm...
It's going to be a lovely, relaxing weekend, spent with good friends, laughter, food, wine, Scrabble (James and I are having an epic re-match as I whipped his arse last time), DVD's and music! How much better can it get? (well, if someone was in bed with me at night keeping me warm, that would improve it somewhat)
I hope everyone has a great weekend, whatever you are doing!
But on top of the bizarre work mood I've been in, I have also had a less stressed (or angsty) week on a personal note. I think the Gent In Question and I have sorted things out fully. We've got ourselves onto a mutally agreeable emotional platform and are moving forward in a satisfactory fashion! I'm pretty chuffed about this - he's a great guy and is going to be a very good friend (well, is already a good friend).
I'm off down the coast this afternoon with my friends James and Jacqui - down to the beach house. It's hardly the weather for beach-housing...the chill of autumn is fast turning wintery and so I doubt there will be much beaching! BUT, it is gorgeous weather still during the day, with bright sunny skies and it's still in the 20's so I feel we will be sitting on the back lawn with a full picnic spread tomorrow afternoon! 'twill be lots of cheeses, dips, crackers, olives, artichokes and of course, wine! mmmmmmmm...
It's going to be a lovely, relaxing weekend, spent with good friends, laughter, food, wine, Scrabble (James and I are having an epic re-match as I whipped his arse last time), DVD's and music! How much better can it get? (well, if someone was in bed with me at night keeping me warm, that would improve it somewhat)
I hope everyone has a great weekend, whatever you are doing!
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