The L-Word...

And NO, I'm not becoming a Lesbian! The L-Word I'm referring to is THAT one...yes, dear readers, LOVE!

Why do I bring up THAT subject? Because it's raised its head! Now, I've never actually been "in love" before - had plenty of infactuations (mostly unrequited) in my time of course, but not the real deal. When I was in my twenties (before I realized definitively that I was gay), although I had flirtatious relationships with girls, I never felt like I wanted to be in a relationship with one. Once I knew for sure that I was gay, I avoided relationships with girls for obvious reasons. And so it's only since I've been out - 22 months and counting - that I've been open to the idea of a relationship ergo LOVE. And as you, my dear readers, are aware, since then I've certainly been out there trying to find Mr Right - and finding lots of Mr Right Nows (and the odd Mr Oh-What-the-Hell-Were-You-Thinking-Of)! That is, until I met McBrad. Ahhh, the gorgeous McBrad.

He actually said the L word on the Anzac weekend down at the beach house. But I didn't want to respond in kind at the time because it would've been just a "me too" response. Although I was definitely feeling things for him, and was HUGELY attracted to him, I didn't want to say the L word willy nilly. Because I've not said it to anyone before (in a romantic sense), I didn't want to use it frivolously - in the throes of passion or when I was inebriated. I didn't want to say it until I was sure of my feelings, that I was sure I'd met someone that I wanted to be with for the forseeable future.

And so last weekend, we were lying in bed talking - proper serious talking, the relationship kinda stuff - and it just came out - naturally and honestly and soberly! And boy, did it feel good! McBrad obviously liked it and definitely showed me how much he liked it - WOW!!! But I was really happy that I did hold out until I was ready for it. (Not that he pressured me or anything - that was the really nice thing. He wanted me to know how he felt and was happy to wait until I could respond) And now, I just want to keep telling him! I don't of course - don't want to overdo it, but it's just such a liberating thing! I love McBrad!!! And I want eveyone to know! Wahooooo! :-)

The only slight problem is that my friends Jacqui and Dan are copping earfuls nearly every day about how gorgeous he is, what a wonderful man he is, how in love I am etc etc and they are just about ready to strangle me next time I mention his name! So I need to reign it in a bit with them.

On other related topics - we merged our diaries this week! No small task, let me say! And now, May has suddenly gone from being quite a busy month to being totally chokka block with social activities! And can I say, there seems to be an inordinately large number of birthdays in May! Not sure why. ..

I'm staying at McBrad's this weekend which will be fantastic too!

Anyway, I will try and blog about some other topic soon, just so that you don't get bored out of your brain with posts about how much I'm in lurrrve! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Monty! xxx